Gia had let Beppe into her life so easily, as if it was the most natural thing in the
world. She’d held him when he’d hurt so badly he’d thought he might die; she’d talked him
down when he’d been so angry he’d considered doing something he’d regret for the rest of
At least once he needed to be strong for her.
This right now, this moment, was theirs. It belonged to them, not to abusive or dead
fathers, not to guilt, regret or sorrow, not to the past or the future.
But will their love survive when tragedy separates them?
“I have to go, Gia. I’m tired and I feel empty. I know you need me, but I have nothing
“I miss you so much it’s hard to breathe.”
Beppe was still Gia’s closest friend. But they’d never be anything more than that
again. Remembering what it felt like to have the person you love most in the world torn away
from you still hurt. Gia was determined never to be put into that position again.
There was never lack of love, but can Beppe win Gia’s trust again?
“When I was broken you gave me pieces of yourself and made me whole again.”
Hi, my name is Teodora and I live in London with my husband Ted and my son Jason. I've
been writing ever since I can remember, but it became my full time job in 2010 when I
decided that everything else I've tried bores me to death and I have to do what I've always
wanted to do, but never had to guts to fully embrace. I've been a journalist, an editor, a
personal assistant and an interior designer among another things, but as soon as the novelty of
the new, exciting job wears off, I always go back to writing. Being twitchy, impatient, loud
and hasty are not qualities that help a writer, because I have to sit alone, preferably still, and
write for most of the day, but I absolutely love it. It's the only time that I'm truly at peace and
the only thing I can do for more than ten minutes at a time - my son has a bigger attention
span than me.
When I'm procrastinating, I like to go to the gym, cook Italian meals (and eat them), read,
listen to rock music, watch indie movies and True Blood re-runs. Or, in the worst case
scenario, get beaten at every Wii game by a six year old.
Don't be shy and get in touch - I love connecting with my readers.
Then, Now, Forever music playlist..
Song quotes edits made by my very talented friend Amber at grownupfangirl.com
Music is an essential part of my writing process. I can’t write in silence – it’s just weird. My
taste in music is very eclectic – I can listen to almost anything. When I was writing Then,
Now, Forever I had a wide range of artists and genres playing all the time. And when I say all
the time, I mean all. the. time. My laptop was on for 16 hours a day, constantly playing music
even when I wasn’t in the room. Walking back inside and finding one of my favourite songs
playing always put me in the mood to write.
Even though I must have listened to hundreds of different songs while writing the book, the
ones I chose for the official playlist are the ones I had on a loop while I was writing certain
scenes. It’s amazing how someone, hundreds of miles away, a long time ago, has written a
song and when you hear it, right at this moment, it means something very personal to you.
Or, in my case, for my characters.
The theme song of Then, Now, Forever is Justin Timberlake’s Mirrors. It was like JT
wrote it for Beppe and Gia. Every single line of the song resonates with my characters and
Another song that reminds me of Gia and Beppe, especially of their relationship as teenagers,
is Adam Lambert’s Never Close Our Eyes.
Beppe’s song has to be The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars. That was the song that I had on a
loop for hours. It was the song that inspired Beppe’s character while I was still writing In a
Heartbeat and concentrating on Max and Stella. It was the song that inspired Beppe and Gia’s
It is the song that defines the whole book.
I listen to 30 Seconds to Mars all the time, writing or not. Their music has definitely
influenced my writing and the stories I tell. For Then, Now, Forever I listened to their new
album Faith, Love, Lust + Dreams constantly. While I was writing the book, I went to Italy
for 4 days and saw 30 Seconds to Mars live. It was one of the most amazing concerts I’ve
ever been to and logically it inspired me to write a whole chapter where Beppe and Gia, along
with Max and Stella, go to a 30 Seconds to Mars show. It wasn’t planned before I actually
went myself, but the experience was definitely worth writing about.
Another band which I adore is Three Days Grace. Usually, I prefer alternative to classic
rock, but Three Days Grace’s sound is very old-school and very inspiring. They are one of
the not too many bands that sound better live than in the studio.
Over and Over is a song I had playing throughout the book, as well as Gone Forever, Pain,
Home and Wake Up.
Beppe has a tattoo with a quote from Rise Against’s song Rumours Of My Demise Are
Greatly Exaggerated, so it had to make the playlist too.
Stupid Girl by Framing Hanley was on repeat when Gia was about to do something stupid,
which was quite often.
Hurricane by 30 Seconds to Mars is an old favourite of mine. It asks an eternal question:
“Would you kill to save a life?” It also paints a beautiful picture of a dysfunctional, yet
perfect relationship – or at least that’s how I see it.
I listen to a lot of Green Day. A lot. When September Ends is a beautiful song, I’ll never
get tired of it. It makes me all melancholy and dreamy, and puts me in the right mindset to
write an angsty scene.
The Kill – 30 Seconds to Mars
Hurricane – 30 Seconds to Mars
Over and Over – Three Days Grace
Stupid Girl – Framing Hanley
Closer to the edge – 30 Seconds to Mars
Mirrors – Justin Timberlake
Do or Die – 30 Seconds to Mars
Up in the air – 30 Seconds to Mars
If I had you – Adam Lambert
What do you want from me – Adam Lambert
Californication – Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Gone forever – Three Days Grace
Never close our eyes – Adam Lambert
Pain – Three Days Grace
Home – Three Days Grace
Wake up – Three Days Grace
What goes around comes around – Justin Timberlake
Wait for me – Kings of Leon
Oh Love – Green Day
Let yourself go – Green day
When September Ends – Green day
Take me – Papa Roach
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